Week Four Weigh In!

Today was the week four weigh in. Everyone did a really great job. I can see so many changes in everyone, and they are all working so hard. I had several things happen today. I lost 3 pounds which is really great. Then during the workout I injured my calf muscle. It might be a small tear in the muscle, but it will be fine. Hurt like the devil when it happened, and for a few hours after, but it is feeling much better now. I have been keeping it up and ice on it. I am ready to get moving again tomorrow. I think that the journey to losing weight has so many other side effects to it. For one I believe that it opens your eyes to other things you might not have thought of before. For instance I have learned that I am way too hard on myself. This is something that I am working on, and I know with God’s help I will no longer get to that point where I am so down on myself that it brings about such negative feelings about me and who I am. God has really opened my eyes, that I have treated myself so horrible over these years. I decided last week, that any loss is just that a loss. It is but one stepping stone to the finish line of the rest of my life. It is a good thing, and one that should be received with thanksgiving. I figured out today that to get where I was just four short weeks ago from where I was when Mike was born was just a matter of gaining one pound a month. I was in such denial at that time that it was not even funny. I guess I figured if I hid under baggy clothes and never looked at a scale it would all go away. That’s what I did. I had a scale in my house, but I never got on it. I did not want to see the number before me. I just ignored it. Had I taken the time to look then, cutting out some of the things I was eating would have saved me from being where I am today. Adding exercise would have helped. Had I taken those steps then, I would be in a different place than I am now. However God doesn’t make mistakes, He has a reason that I am here now. I might not know what it is now, but its there. Romans 12:2 says; And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. When my journey is over and I am at my goal weight, I will then be able to become the person that God made me to be. That weight loss will and transformation of me will show the glory of God. I am looking forward to that day even if it takes two more years. The time will pass whether I make good choices or bad ones, so I have decided to make good choices every day. I know that He is with me, because He has promised to never forsake me.

Carrie