Time to Decide

So I have not checked in like I should have, but I have been trying to decide how to change my life so that I will never diet again. For those who know me you know I lost 100 pounds a few years ago. I did this using eat to live, but decided that I wanted to try just a little of this or that. That got me back on the eating addictive foods. I have a year to get where I want to be for my sons 8th grade graduation. It won't be the end of my journey but it will be a start. Barring any outside influence I hope to live into my nineties with my husband and my plan is that we will be doing the Lords work for last part of our lives. After looking at all the options and looking things that have been successful for me in the past I have made my decision. I will starting a new life style of eating to live. My body is a temple for the Holy Spirit. I look really gross and feel really gross and I know I'm grieving the Spirit.

Here is the thing. If you have weight loss surgery you have to change you have to work hard. Once you have it done you have to continue to work hard. If you count calories you have to work hard. If you go on any diet you have to work hard. Knowing this, that I will always have to work hard no matter what I choose to eat to live.

I went on vacation last week and was having such a great time until my heart started racing and wouldn't stop. I thought it was the end. I thought I was going to die. I don't want to live like that anymore. I don't want to have to call ahead to see if I can fit somewhere before we can go. I haven't even been on an air plane with my boys because of not being able to fit in the seat. Some of is my lymphedema and some is I'm fat.

You know what? I can change fat. I will change it. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

So I will reacquaint myself with the life style and start working to change mine. I feel The Lord has reaffirmed this decision by not releasing me from always having thoughts lingering back to eat to live. So here goes! Thank you for coming on this journey with me. I'm thinking of making a Facebook page but haven't decided yet. I will keep you posted.

New week

Hi everyone I hope that things are going well for you. I did my grocery store shopping today and have everything for the entire week. I just need to get a few bags for my nuts so I can put them in the proper serving size. I'm thinking of making a face book page to journal my thoughts and then when I get to a certain point in my journey I will open it up for people to join. It seems that God has spoken to my husband and he seems to be on board for not only helping me but for taking this journey with me. Every since he has been hurt he has gained at least 80 pounds. I think he is ready to take this journey with me as well. Today I had roast beef, cheese on a sandwich thin and fruit salad. I had a hamburger for dinner. I didn't exercise today because I had no access to a pool and I'm holding off on anything else right now. I am ready but I don't want a set back by getting hurt. So that's all for today.

Prep day

Well later today marks my exciting journey into new territory. I will spend the evening making my meals for lunches and snacks next week. I will then get everything ready for dinners each night which are going to be super simple. One main dish a veggie and salad. I will be drinking water only with the occasional fresh squeezed juice, smoothie, or tea with monk fruit. Once I get settled into the food change I will work on training. One step at a time and one day at a time. I will get there with God by my side. I'm so excited to see where my journey takes me. I hope you guys are ready for the ride as well. Until tomorrow. 😀

Feeling Like Job

Some days make me feel like the devil is enjoying playing with me. For all I know my faith my indeed be tested. For that test my faith will always win. For if God is for me then I can face anything because nothing else matters. I am excited about all the prep work and research going into my meal prep and all for next week. My motto is to be prepared at all costs. That way I won't have an excuse. No excuses!!! Let's get this done. I'm ready and I think I have been for a long time. I have my exercise planned for the week. I have most of my food planned now all I have to do is put it all together and make my shopping list. I will shop and come home and prep for the week. I have to pick up a few things tomorrow like containers so I will have something to put my food and snacks in. I am going to use my body media arm band and my fitness pal to track. I am going to take pictures each week in Mondays. I am going to do a full length and face picture and as I lose inches and clothe sizes I may do other shots as well. I also plan on doing some videos and I may even take video of food prep and food pictures. I also want to warn you that it may not post my pics and videos right away but I will at some point. With the few people who are following me right now I may go ahead and do it. I will have to pray on it and see. I will sign off for now. 

What a Day!

Well today was a great day. I have to admit I believe anyone who is getting to make a big life change should really get in the right mindset before they even start. It should be taken good note of Romans 12:2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the RENEWING OF YOUR MIND. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--His good, pleasing, and perfect will. I know that I am taking this to heart myself. I want to be able to do all the things that I can to spread the gospel and I can not do it, not being able to get around. Plus I was given this body by my creator and therefore out of respect I need to be a good steward of this temple. I did my bible reading this morning, prayed, and I just feel like this time is different. I am renewed and looking forward to this new journey.

There will be some hard times I know. It will not be an easy road, but I believe it will be one that will be so transforming that I will not even believe it myself. I have a family for the most part that doesn't see health and healthy eating and exercise as something that they should do. So maybe I will inspire them to change. Maybe my husband will see what a great job I am doing and he will decide to join me. Maybe he will not. The one thing for sure is I am using him and the boys as an excuse for me to do anything. I can not that anymore. I have no control over them and what they do or do not do, with the exception of the boys of course. I can only change myself. I am only in control of me. So that is what I am doing. I am changing me and I will be glad I did. I am super excited about all of it.

I am going to suffer through every moment. I cant say that I wont complain. I will try not to, but I wont promise it. I know that I will not be alone in any of this. I only know of one cheat I am going to have and that is for my birthday. Who knows I may not even want it. Jesus will be right there with me and He will support me and keep me on track.

I am preparing for what kinds of things I will be eating. I will be using my plan that my nutritionist gave me, and go for what is healthy. I am going to get started with a pool membership and start exercising. I really wish I could find some aqua cycling classes around here. Hey no excuses I will take what I can and go from there. I have a dream of doing a few different things for exercise one day. They include boxing, parkour (I know, but I can do it in time), rock climbing, hiking, biking, zumba, zip lining, paddle boarding, getting back into softball and so much more. I am no way thinking I will be interesting in running. I am just not a runner and it is something that is not on my bucket list or to do any time in the future list. I still maintain if you see me running you better run too, because its bad. This is just a little list of what I hope to accomplish in the future.
 
 

Long Time Since Posting

Boy it has really been a long time since I have done any writing on this blog. I really don't know why either, because I love to write. I am not good at writing but I love to do it. Do you know something else I am not good at? Sticking with my goals. Apparently when it comes to dieting I just fail. While I wont sit here and say that I will stay on it this time. I am going to give another try. I do want to go to my sons 8th grade graduation next year without having to worry about how far I am going to have to walk or where I will sit or if I will embarrass him. I wont promise that I will write on this blog everyday or that I wont fall off the wagon, but I am going to try. I am going to give it everything I have and I am going to try. I am not going to let this beat me. As far as my crazy lymphedema I am going to beat it to. I am going find me a place that has aqua cycle classes even if it means that I have to drive hours. I am going to do what I have to do.

I am really excited about this. I have so many dreams and with my kids getting older and starting to become more independent and while its very sad that they will be leaving the nest soon, it also is a new chapter in my life and in David's. I want to be around for that. One reason we decided on having kids young was so we would not be to old to enjoy getting some us time again. So here goes nothing. Its time to take back the body God gave me and stop treating it so badly. I will have to start slow and for things to work out I might have to go a different route at first, but I feel sure it will all work out in the end.