Time to Decide

So I have not checked in like I should have, but I have been trying to decide how to change my life so that I will never diet again. For those who know me you know I lost 100 pounds a few years ago. I did this using eat to live, but decided that I wanted to try just a little of this or that. That got me back on the eating addictive foods. I have a year to get where I want to be for my sons 8th grade graduation. It won't be the end of my journey but it will be a start. Barring any outside influence I hope to live into my nineties with my husband and my plan is that we will be doing the Lords work for last part of our lives. After looking at all the options and looking things that have been successful for me in the past I have made my decision. I will starting a new life style of eating to live. My body is a temple for the Holy Spirit. I look really gross and feel really gross and I know I'm grieving the Spirit.

Here is the thing. If you have weight loss surgery you have to change you have to work hard. Once you have it done you have to continue to work hard. If you count calories you have to work hard. If you go on any diet you have to work hard. Knowing this, that I will always have to work hard no matter what I choose to eat to live.

I went on vacation last week and was having such a great time until my heart started racing and wouldn't stop. I thought it was the end. I thought I was going to die. I don't want to live like that anymore. I don't want to have to call ahead to see if I can fit somewhere before we can go. I haven't even been on an air plane with my boys because of not being able to fit in the seat. Some of is my lymphedema and some is I'm fat.

You know what? I can change fat. I will change it. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

So I will reacquaint myself with the life style and start working to change mine. I feel The Lord has reaffirmed this decision by not releasing me from always having thoughts lingering back to eat to live. So here goes! Thank you for coming on this journey with me. I'm thinking of making a Facebook page but haven't decided yet. I will keep you posted.