I would like to know why, when I decide to change my life and start eating the right things and exercising, everywhere I look I see skinny women who are in shape saying they can eat anything they want all the time and never gain weight. It drives me crazy (no offense to any of you who God blessed like this). I was talking to a woman the other day who told me she could eat anything all day everyday and as long as she exercises an hour a day she never gains a pound. Boy I would like to know how I can get in on that deal. Also it seems that every time I go somewhere there is some super fit lady sitting in a car next to mine eating a Big Mac, fries and a coke. This is not fair. I know that sometimes life just isn’t fair, but come on, this really stinks big time. I have heard people say that it will catch up with them one day. I don’t really believe that, and believe me I when I say that I don’t hate them, I just envy them a little. Oh well, I guess that I will just have to adjust to the fact that I will never be able to eat whatever I want whenever and look like a super model.
One thing that I can tell you is that I have over the past week become scared to death of the following items; sugar, sodium, high fructose corn syrup, trans fats (if you are not the label police the food companies can really trick you believe me when the label says 0 trans fat that is usually a lie), and white products such as white flour, bread, rice, and pasta. I have been carefully monitoring everything that I put into my mouth and now I fear have become somewhat obsessed over these things. My wonderful husband fixed dinner tonight while I was working out. He had it waiting on me when I got home. It was turkey breast in some sort of sauce, can we say death by sodium and sugar. Then there were the veggies that he had that were steamed in a cheese sauce, which as we all know is a no go. Then there was the huge and I mean huge baked potato that rivals the portions that one gets in a restaurant. What in the world was I to do? Do I eat and not complain and gain weight, or do I say something. I of course made the wrong decision. I said honey I really appreciate this but the sugar and sodium in these things are not something I can eat. This is the point where he looked at me with those puppy dog eyes and looked like he was going to cry and said but…. There is only 50 calories in the broccoli with cheese sauce, and the potato is healthy and you can have it especially after a workout, the turkey only has 400mg of sodium and 4g of sugar. All of these things will be ok and I worked so hard on it. It is at this point I say ok but if I eat this and gain weight Sunday it’s your fault. Then he replied ok I will take the blame (which I of course could not let him do, as the decision was mine to make and I know what is right and what is not). So of course I ate a very small amount of the turkey and a little bite of broccoli and then I cut the potato in half (nothing on it but a few spritz of spray butter) and that was my dinner. Not only this but when we stopped at the gas staion for me to use the restroom (which to just to let you know when you drink a gallon of water everyday you have to go quite often) he bought my two boys both candy bars what in the world could he be thinking? I could smell the chocolate in the front seat. I assure you however I did not cave I stayed strong. The husband of course bought a fiber one bar for himself, to which he offered me some. I picked up the package and of course there is HFCS, sugar, and more sugar. There was also trans fat in it. So there again not even one bite for me of that either.What an afternoon. Later while we were talking he said you can not be so afraid to eat these things. At least try to eat things that do not contain added sugars and just keep a check on the sodium levels. I have realized that I am going to have to work harder next week finding foods that I enjoy eating. Not sure how much longer I can live on chicken breast, brown rice, turkey sandwiches on bread that has no taste, and eggs (man I hate eggs). The fact that I have not had anything chocolate or sweet at all this week is also starting to weigh on my mind. How the heck does one find a dessert that tastes great and is good for you as well? Maybe such a dessert does not exist. Anyway for now I think that my fear of the above mentioned items will have to stick around, for a while at least.
Carrie
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