First Workout and Weigh in

Today was a very nerve racking day for me. It was my first Biggest Loser workout and I was not sure what to expect. As you can see since I am writing this I did not die. This thought had entered my mind that I might not make it out alive. I did make it through the first workout, but sadly not without accommodations. I had to sit for the last of the workout and do exercises sitting down. I felt like a failure before I even started. Everyone else did not seem to have a problem doing the workout. My back was coming apart. I am extremely committed to the whole process. I know that Kristen and Kevin will not give up on me, and they know that I can do this as well. I was able to get some exercises to help strengthen my back (thanks Kristen) and I have already done them since being home. I know that getting stronger is a process, and we all have to start somewhere. The point is that I am starting and I will finish and finish strong. You guys will not even recognize me after 12 weeks =) I had a lot of fun (even though it might not have looked like it, trust me I did have fun). I really enjoyed meeting everyone and making some great friends. Thanks for all your support today. This is a great bunch of people and I know that we will all do great! The weigh in was public and believe it or not that did not bother me at all. I pretty much knew where my number was, but I was not sure because I do not have a scale. Today just put it all in perspective. I had debuted over and over again if I should put my weight on here, but I think that I have to. All of you know by looking at me that I am extremely heavy. It is just a number; it does not define who I am. Besides, this is the last time I will ever see it again. From here on out it is down hill. So here goes drum roll please….. and the starting weight for me is 447.2. Not a pretty number at all, but one that made me realize that it’s now or never and never is not an option. Today brought up a lot of emotions for me, and I am sure this is just the beginning. I can tell you that after today when I got home and looked at the last candy heart and a Pepsi in the fridge I thought about eating and drinking them. Then a funny thing happened. I thought why? Is it worth it? No it is not worth it at all. I can not believe it, but I just did not want it. It no longer had the same appeal to me that it did even last night. Guess what I had instead? I had water and some air popped popcorn. So I am looking forward to tomorrow’s workout and I am excited about moving forward everyday. Thanks for the support.
Carrie