Off Track

It has been one frustrating week for me in many ways. I still want this more than anything else, but it seems that mind has other ideas. I hate that I did extra good the week after being sick on my eating and exercising, but it did not show up on the scale. It just seems that the hard work I had been putting in would have shown up on the scale. I kind of fell into a back slide this week, and therefore I expect that will show up on the scale. I just have not felt like doing anything at all including eating right. The one thing that this has shown me is that play time is over for good. My old habits can not creep back in because it makes me feel like crap. I have not been eating well this week and it shows in how I feel. I never want to feel like that again. Even if I never lose another pound from here on out, I will eat right. It is the one thing I can do to at least make me and my body feel good. Of course the exercising is a given I love it, and I will SO miss it when this is over. I hope to continue to do it at home, but I know it will be hard because it will not be as fun and I will not have any accountability at home. The one thing that I am NOT is a quitter. I will NOT quit. That is not an option for me. I deserve to feel good! God showed me something I really and truly needed which is the following verse- Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance~ James 1: 2-3. I love that my God knows exactly what I need to pick me up and keep me moving. He is such a great God. I may not be mentally on track yet, but I know with His help I will be.